I’m so sorry you are struggling with this. I have depression and cptsd and I am not a stranger to anxiety. My anxiety is at its worst before bed which is why I cannot sleep without sleeping pills. Melatonin and anything else doesn’t help. I need a high dose of zopliclone or I don’t sleep. And I’m glad you have been able to write about it. There needs to be a lot more openness when it comes to mental illness.