I’m sorry you are in a similar situation and having a special needs child can complicate it more if your marriage is on shaky ground as it is. I mean my husband has had to put up with my extreme depression and I’ve put him through other hell. But he’s also put me through hell and unfortunately I’m notorious for holding grudges. It’s not a surprise this is how things turned out. But as you said the grass isn’t always greener and divorce can be devastating. I’m only staying for financial reasons and convenience as well as realizing that the grass wouldn’t necessarily be greener elsewhere.