What 12 step program was it if you don’t mind me asking? I have depression and cptsd from so much bullying in my youth as I have as learning disabilities and adhd, undiagnosed at the time, and I was heavy (still am) and acne as I had undiagnosed PCOS. I struggle with my self esteem today as I have had other trauma in my adulthood. I also never stood up for myself and it’s impacting me today. I wish I knew then what I know now and that’s where I struggle with self compassion and become angry at myself instead. Thanks for writing a vulnerable piece.